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This is my first blog post in which I’ll be discussing what I’ve been thinking about and my plans, please keep in mind that it might be a little personal.

I guess as of recently I’ve been more aware of this situation that I’m in, which is basically that I have alot of free time.

And you might think, this isn’t a bad thing right? Yeah it isn’t, but I feel like every day I don’t try to change this lazy schedule of mine I’m wasting an opportunity.

I’ve been trying to find stuff that I like, I’ve tried programming for a while, I played music for a bit, but nothing really has kept my interest?

But to be honest, the main reason why I am not really getting better at these things is because of my motivation. My brain really just treats these things as something like a video game.

This sucks, because it’s really hard for me to get me to learn them in a schedule.

I feel like I’d be really good at actually getting taught something though, despite what you might think, I’m quite good at following tasks, it’d be great.

Even something that my family got me to think about, a “club” would also be good, I’d have some much appreciated social contact and learn stuff!

I’m really lucky because my future plans are basically already planned, I’m getting a high paying job and I’ll ace school.

Which is really why I’m thinking about this. Because I can overachive at school, and I did a while ago, but Why right?

I have no push to do well than average at school, my parents are fine as long as I’m not failing, and nobody else really cares.

I guess last period was a good oppertunity to show the school what I’m capable of, my mentor told me that when judging you they take stuff like that into account.

I’ve been thinking about putting “Please DM me if you need me for any sort of project, you’d greatly support me” on my discord, though I don’t think it’d have much effect.

I really would enjoy it to be honest, making a game, or learning something with another person, and it’d probably make me alot happier as well.

I think I have greatly changed as a person in these last few months though, which is good, because I love change.

Primarily because I’ve become alot more social, not popular kid class, but you know what I mean.

It’s actually allowed me to enjoy school alot more, which is nice I guess.

But it’s like, it doesn’t really change anything about ME right? The point is just that I NEED to start doing something. (or I might go insane :P)

I guess I’ve been thinking about getting into creating maps of games like Age of History 3, I did that once and I LOVED it, the combination of learning new stuff, creating nice images and making patriotic texts and flags is just so fun to me.

Now that I’m thinking about it, there’s no reason really not to do that right? I see no downside.

I made a pong game in pygame, but that’s really it for now, I really don’t get that much satisfaction from doing python at the moment. I’ll put it in the portfolio though.

It’s so strange that I know that I’d enjoy things like python so much more if I had someone to do it with together.

It really is an interesting time for me right now, I’ll keep you all (myself) updated.

Bye! (Sorry for my weird way of writing lol, gotta get used to it I guess.)